Monday, February 22, 2010

Hitting a Rough Spot

Woke up today and the scale reads the same weight as the day of my surgery! WTF (and it is only Monday-to further explain, see ). I am just so mad and angry. Maybe I should be back at work today so I can be mad at everyone else. Instead, I am going to open this rant.

I read all your blogs about the first week or so after surgery and know that this is the time to heal and that I shouldn’t think about losing weight and yada, yada, yada. Oh but it is so hard to think of all the effort (and money) and not see any results. Like going to the after Christmas sales and finding out when you get to the cash that they charged you full price. P*ssed off is the way I feel. And I had to get up at 5:30 am to drive my DH to the airport. And I didn’t sleep very well last night because I can’t sleep on my left side as I get pain near where the port is sutured to my gut. Speaking of my gut—it is still swollen, although now I think after two weeks, my liver has probably grown back to the fatty mess it was before surgery. And feeling sad for myself last night I sipped on 20 year old Port and half of it came back up in a burp. More waste of money. GRRRRR….

Just closed the rant. It’s over. I feel better. But the scales might just be sitting in the garbage on Wednesday morning instead of in my closet.

On to the positive stuff for the day. Since I was up so early and finished my two mugs of coffee, I started to get hungry (first time that sensation has hit) around 8:00 and had two scrambled eggs. I then got on the treadmill and did a 1 km walk. I have decided it was time to get off my butt and get into some sort of exercise routine before I head back to work. I plan on 1 km (about 0.6 miles since my treadmill registers in miles) for two days and then up it to 1.5 km (about a mile) for the next week. I want to increase it 0.5 miles a week until I am doing 3 miles or about 5 km by the end of March. This is my version of the C25K (Couch to 5K) that others are doing but I will stick to walking. I also need to up my water intake as I seem to forget as I lie on the couch. I walk with music and only got through 3 songs one of which was the Black Eyed Peas song Meet Me Half Way. I decided it is what I will now sing to my band. Here is part of the song:

     Can you meet me half way
     Right at the boarderline

     That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
     I'll be lookin out, night n'day
     Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
     I can't go any further then this
     I want you so bad it's my only wish

YouTube song: Meet Me Half Way (Black Eyed Peas) 

On Wednesday, I can start on mushie/soft foods and hope to get in more protein. I think I have been stuck with too many carb foods over the last two weeks. I can’t stand the protein drinks right now so haven’t been the best about getting in good protein. Now I can make some turkey chili and some chicken casseroles to get the right balance of nutrients. My cookbooks are spread all over the family room as I am determined to cook from scratch as much as I can. I was depending too much on frozen dinners and fast food over the last year. Yah for me! I love to cook and just have to make it another habit. I also have to learn to cut the quantity since my kids are rarely here for dinner and I can only eat about ½ of what I did before.

I’m going to meet my band half-way and do my part. No one said it would be easy. It is just a tool and I have to learn how to use it properly to build me a spectacular body. Thanks for listening.


Gilly said...

Sandy...I think I sent you a reply to your question on my post, and then didn't save it (if I had a dime for every time I did that! arg!) Anyhoo, here's what I said:

My first fill was done at 4 weeks post op...I made the appointment when I went for my 2 week check-up. Actually, I made the appointment for my first 2 fills at that time, since they book up. 2 weeks apart. So I'm having my second fill tomorrow at 6 weeks to the day post-surgery. I think I had 4 ccs in there, after my first fill i think i have 5. So hopefully tomorrow they will give me 1 more and then hopefully 6ccs will be my sweet spot...fingers and toes crossed! Call them and make an appointment...they're really good about making them in advance!

Jess said...

I know it's frustrating but you must have patience dah-ling. You're doing great and it will all reflect on the scale very soon.

And thanks for the shout out on your previous post. I'm so flattered.

Kristen said...

Yay for you on getting up and doing the time on the ol'treadmill.. It's great that you have set some goals to's always nice to have a 'plan' :) Bummer about havin to get up so early.. anything before 6 is torture!!

Bianca J said...

Hang in there Sandy. It can be very frustrating but the scale will move. It's just a matter of time.

DawnB said...

That scale will move in the right direction soon - but I know what you mean about being pissed off, I felt the same way last week - but then I saw results a few days later, so hang in there!

Girl Bandit said...

I love that song and it is a great motto. I remember feeling frustrated at around day 8 or 9 and believe me it passes....and the scales will show soon. You may have retained some water or still be swollen but rant on here all you need...we will listen :) Stay strong

Gen said...

This sucks. I agree, it is probably water retention. Here is my remedy: mix some Splenda sweetened cranberry juice (or sugar free cranberry juice with a little fake sugar added) half and half with water. I usually make a total of 3 liters. Just make a big jug full. Then start drinking. Drink as much as you can during the day. It is my best remedy for flushing out the excess fluids, and it almost always works!

BTW I loved your Goldfish post, LOL. It will not kill you to eat 10 or 20 goldfish. Do what you need to do to get through this phase. I remember being very annoyed because the mushy stage was so carb heavy and really not all that filling. Have you tried the low fat ricotta with pizza/tomato sauce and mozzarella or parmesan - all nuked together? That is a good low carb meal.

Hang in there, it will be over soon...And until then, be kind to yourself!

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