Monday, May 10, 2010

Word for Today is F**K

Today I said the F-word so many times, my brain was tired. It started by telling my acting manager that this place was F***ing insane. Then I walked by the guy who will be acting manager in two weeks and told him he could just F*** off and so could the other guy. Then I left and went for a two hour drive and cried the rest of the afternoon. They are all a bunch of F***ing assholes. When the manager is away, what gives these guys the right to change everything without consulting the people (me) who do the work!! I guess I should have gone on their morning coffee walks for their double doubles (that's a reference to a trip to Tim Horton's our local coffee/donut shop where coffee means double cream, double sugar). Maybe then I would have been "in the loop". I was so upset tonight that I had to take an anti-anxiety pill. This is me on an anti-anxiety med and the F-word is still coming out. Don't worry, I won't lose my job. I am unionized and work for the government. There are at least 5 other deadbeats ahead of me that should go and they can't get rid of them. Just wanted to vent. I tried stroking the cat but I think after 4 hours he is a bit tired of being stroked and started to scratch and bite me.

I wanted to add a few pictures I scanned. This is from 1996 but I am still shocked how big I look. I think it was Gen who mentioned she has a skinny camera. I want it, so she better watch out in Chicago or it will go missing in my purse. This photo was taken with one of those old cameras that used film.
This next one is me in 1969 just before joining TOPS (Take off Pounds Sensibly). I was 15. We had to squat in front of a pig cutout if we gained weight. Lost about 40 pounds though and was the division winner for a teenager. I wrote a post about that experience. The first one in colour, I think I weighed about 176 pounds and one in black and white with my banner in the 130's, in 1972.
And here is one of me as a newlywed in 1981. This would have been the smallest I had ever been, just around 130 pounds.
I'll be posting more as I get them scanned in. I find it helpful to look back. Because sometimes, I now see that I didn't look that bad.

Tomorrow I will find a better Word of the Day. May need more drugs.

22 comments:

Susan said...

So sorry your day sucked. I hope writing your blog helped. Love the photos and yes - I think we all looked a lot better than we thought :)!

Linda said...

Sorry about your bad day. Sometimes we know the perfect word for the day. :)

Marie said...

Wow you needed to vent! It's good to do that once in a while. I vented on the phone to my boss last week and said some things I regret. I'm not unionized and can be let go for any reason!! LOL! Oh well - It is what it is - but sometimes you just have to say F***!
Love the old pics too!! The one of you in 1981 looks like some of mine!!

Gen said...

Thanks for the pics! Fun to see. And I totally have the skinniest camera on the planet - however, it is on my phone, so it will not work well in the evening. Get your best outfits on for the daytime shots!

Sorry about the work crap. All I can say is....use those anti-anxiety meds generously. I know the Lexapro does wonders for my fly-off-the-handle tendencies.

Drazil said...

Not happy that you are upset - but love it when you swear. I hope your day tomorrow is better.

Kristin said...

I hope tomorrow is better for you, girlie. Great pictures, it's fun to see you at different phases of your life.

Jess said...

E-slap (to snap you out of it) and e-hug (for slapping you). I hope tomorrow's better.

Miss Vickie "The Queen Bee" said...

The swearing made me laugh! I kinda needed a laugh tonight. Some men are such asses! Hope you feel better.

Jennifer said...

Those Effing Effers!! I hope you have a better day tomorrow!
And um, yeah..you sure didn't look bad! You look downright skinny. Love the flashbacks! I hope to dig out a few golden oldies myself this week.

Big Hugs dear!

Girl Bandit said...

So sorry to hear about your crap day.....hope all the crying got it out of your system...some days just sux!!!

Jacquie said...

I'm hoping you are feeling better today and are ready to take on those F*cking A**holes! Do they realize they are F*cking with a member of BOOBs? They F*ck with you, they F*ck with all of us!

Barbara said...

Ok Sandy Lee.. Here is something that will make it all better.
cut and paste and enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2R7aCyYDFbE

Jenny said...

I totally laughed out loud when you said you were unionized and work for the gov't so you won't get fired! I just thought it was cute.

I'm sorry your day sucked. I say the "f" word way too much. I really think that we should all have a heavy bag where we work to avoid situations like this!

Lonicera said...

What a stressful day... is there nothing you can do to improve the work situation so you're consulted? It's good that they should know how you feel, but absolutely rotten and wrong wrong wrong that you should have felt so awful that you were compelled to drive around crying for two hours. I felt mad just reading about it! I loved looking at the pictures and much identified with the phrase "I now see I didn't look that bad" - that's exactly how I felt looking at old photos of myself.
I liked your post before too, though I avoid anything to do with Mother's Day because I'm not one myself and mine died 3 years ago. Mum hated it because she thought it was a commercial thing, and that every day should be mother's day..., or failing that, then her birthday...
Caroline

Amy said...

Oh no, what an awful day! But you did make me totally crave a double-double - I might have to go get one at lunch. Or an Iced Capp...hmmm, decisions, decisions. Maybe all liquids for a few days isn't so bad after all! :)

Hang in there - I hope today is much, much better!

Nella said...

F--K em all baby and go have a friggin medium single single baby!

Mamma loves her timmies!

DB said...

You go girl!!!! Tell 'em to all get F*&^%D

Band-Babe said...

I love the Mary Tyler Moore pic! How cute! Youth is so wasted on the young, I didn't know how great you had it (as I complained about being fat at 130 lbs). You're obviously a beautiful woman now, but what a cute girl you were!

Oh, and the F word is therapeutic. Sometimes, there is NO other word that will do. Fully justified.

amandakiska said...

Sandy Lee, You are so f-ing adorable at ANY weight! I'm sorry you're having a rough time at work.

Fiona said...

I'm glad you told them what for! I am the only female in my office and the f word comes in pretty handy. So does bollocks but I dont know if you say that in the US? And I often mutter "wanker" under my breath. Sorry your day sucked. Loved loved loved your retro pics, keep them coming. Thanks for all your comments on my blog they are very much appreciated. xxx

Joey said...

Oh Mt. Suckubus!!!
Fuck-fuckity-fuck-fuck!
That's right, no editing. Hope it turns around for you soon.
Love the old photos!
P.S. Fuck.

Bonnie said...

I look at your smiling profile picture and have a hard time believing that the word fuck can come out of that cute smiling face. Sorry you had such a crappy Monday. Hopefully today was better. Love the pics!

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