Saturday, January 9, 2010

Big, Fat Cow

Name Calling, Words. It is amazing the effect a single word can have on us. After writing the section on the word obese, I realized how gut-wrenching that word can be. Add an adjective (such as severe, mobidly or super) and it becomes even more of a label. I know a few years ago, jokingly someone started using weight challenged but it still doesn’t change the discrimination we are subjected to as we go through life. In contrast, take the word “skinny”. We can add severely skinny or super skinny and our brains think model, but have you ever heard of someone being described as mobidly skinny. Makes you want to go out and buy a coffin to keep close by.

Another personal word for me is “cow”. Makes one think of farmland, milk, bells (in Switzerland) and mooing. Add the adjectives big, fat and apply it to a person and you get a memory that sticks to me years later. As a kid of about 10, the mother of my best friend angrily called me a “big, fat cow”. To this day, I see her rage and hatred and the beginning of my confusion with weight. Even without the name calling, the looks of disgust we have all felt bore a hole right through to our hearts.

I am a good person, smart and intelligent. But I can be brought to my knees when someone implies I am fat. Or gives me that look of disgust. Ok so I am fat, add adjective-obese in fact. Like many of the blogger’s I follow, I avoided having my picture taken for many years. A few years ago, I started putting together a slideshow of my family and had few recent pictures of me. After that I made a promise to not avoid the camera. I still delete a lot of the really bad pictures but now know I have a history of myself. The one thing I must remember is not to wear sleeveless although I have been able to use Photoshop to my advantage in a lot of pictures. Even removed some wrinkle in one! This is my first posting of a real picture of me. Untouched. My face showing. For all the world to see. And I don’t think I look anything like the big, fat cow above! Her ears are bigger than mine.


Amanda said...

someday we will be able to wear sleeveless and not worry what others think! "cow" and "big as a house" were some of mine...I hate when I do the body test on Wii fit and it says obese and the kids ask what that means...but we are going to leave that BMI behind!

Debi said...

Hi Sandy, I agree that the terms they gave us are nothing but mean & nasty. They hurt us just by implying that we are that big. They think that by calling us these names, that they will embarrass us to lose weight. But the real reaction is to gain even more weight!

By the way, you look lovely in the photos. I would be proud to call you my friend & do.

THE DASH! said...


These words were put in place to have negative connotations by those who never had a battle in their life. Looking at you, you are beautiful - a huge smile on your face when both bigger and smaller.

Jess said...

I agree with DASH, you can tell that you're just a naturally joyful person. Good luck with your journey!

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